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[friezaess]

My mind is screaming at me to get off my ass and do something.

"DRAW! VECTOR! CREATE! You've almost finished the writing for that indie picture book you keep thinking about, get to work on some more illustrations! That guy! Yeah, the one over in Canada now. He wants you to draw some comic book or some shit... do that! Even if it fails miserably, at least you're trying to get your work out there! Pleeeeease... "

My heart wants to come out and play.

"Wow, that last pic you did was awesome! I felt so free and giddy! I know you're not one to express yourself through art, but the power to be able to create images from your head is an expression in itself! Go on... I know underneath all that shyness and "I'm not worthy" crap you have an inflated ego. Give yourself a reason for posessing it."

All this as I sit rotting away before a monitor. Classic example of a willing soul bound to weak flesh I suppose.

Dear God I fail -.-;

As I mentioned to sonictail a while ago, I'm completley cutting anime (and all associated conventions) out of my life. That's just not who I am anymore. Which is a shame really, because just last year I found limitless enjoyment being an obnoxious fangirl, and doing little jobs on the side for animenewsnetwork.com.au was very cool. I'd outgrown anime before I knew it, literally. Everything after around my 21st birthday was done purely out of habit. Conventions, purchases, obsessions... When for the first time in your life you've found your niece, it's hard to accept if and when you eventually grow out of it. Who would have thought Japanese cartoons could play a major role in one's life? ... Dear Christ, I'm a geek.

Meeeeeeeeeh... back to vectoring, I guess...

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[knightessyamika.livejournal.com]

That's it! Go vector your arse off Bitch! lol I'm glad to hear you have some really good projects going so I won't let you waste the opportunity. Get off your arse so you can either work or let me kick it! ;p

As for anime, meh, it's not the be all and end all of life. Everyone has their different paths, and you fall in and out of love with different things, habits and people along the way. They all form who you are now, even if your interest has died.

However, I do miss the soapbox part of you. You see, there's this ex-uni classmate of mine who is always picking fights with me and saying that anime and Japan has no place anywhere near him, this of course including me. It doesn't help that all his friends are MINE too, though they often stick up for me. Anyway, the guy's arse needs a kicking and the soapbox you would have soooo done it! BTW He's an ex-Evangelion fan but vehemently denies that he was ever otaku - eheh, yeah right.

*End rant* ^_^;; *hugs*

[friezaess.livejournal.com]

Lol! Well I *did* manage to finish that image I was working on. Things look so much better in vector... so nice and clean :3

You're welcome to borrow my now defunct soapbox to throw at the head of your ex-classmate fag o.o See if you can't get the thing to shatter and sent splinters into his organs. That'd be awesome.

*gnaws* ^_^

[knightessyamika.livejournal.com]

Oh gawd am I ever so tempted considering he pretty much sent a death threat to me that was supposed to be a reply on LJ but which he deleted.

("The only thing your existence is hindering is a better world. I advise you to end it immediately. Remember kids, down the road, not across the street.")

He is such a big jerk and I'm not even one of those big convention going types or anything. I think he's either Pauline Hanson's biggest fan, or a wannabe One Nation party member. Or just maybe... he's pissed off with me for another little (I emphasise 'little') incident that was all his fault and that got him in trouble with his girlfriend. Idiot.

[friezaess.livejournal.com]

Holy shit! He actually SAID that? Oh God, what a fucking moron. Yeah man, make an ass of yourself over the internet and you'll be sure to get your point across! -.-;

On the upside, if he's anything like that statement suggests, he'll probably end up being an emotional cripple in later life.

[knightessyamika.livejournal.com]

He's planning on joining the teaching/research team at QUT Creative Industries. We can see one of three things happening. 1) All his students will quit. 2) All his students will transfer to a different class (even if it as at 9:30pm on a Thursday night - damn I hate those classes!) 3) The faculty will wonder why all his students except for one or two (if any,) failed the class and then point to the common factor, the teacher.

Yeah, he is a jerk. They cancelled "Australia's Biggest Jerk Awards" because he was winning it too many times consecutively. Randy said I should send the email to the police as a death threat. My father wanted to ring the guy up and give him a piece of his mind. And Alanna wanted a few words with him just from me telling her the whole woeful tale (which is longer than I can put here - I'll tell you sometime later.) Don't worry though - all my other uni friends (including his gf) stood up for me in the end.

[knightessyamika.livejournal.com]

The bitch of it is though that he only usually acts this way over the internet - maybe he thinks he can get away with it better, or it's more private or something. Then next time we meet at a mutual uni friend's party, he acts like nothing ever happened.

[friezaess.livejournal.com]

Well you know, the internet makes an ass out of everyone. People are a lot nastier when they have a monitor to hide behind. Just look at /b/!

[knightessyamika.livejournal.com]

Just look at /b/!

-.-; Ah no thank you. I'll be right. Besides, knowing you and Randy already gives me walking, talking /b/ in stereo. I don't think I need much more than that.

[friezaess.livejournal.com]

Of course not! There's too much luffs present for me to ever wanna cut you out... you're mah buddies ^_____^ *tackles you*

[rukubites.livejournal.com]

*laugh* niche. *hugs*

Anime is just Japanese cartoons. Perhaps you'll come back to them sometime, perhaps not. The fandom arena seems to be for teenage fangirls anyway. Understandable if you're over that. Sefie and Mon and others were expressing similar sentiments.

May I ask, if the anime fangirl is not who you are, tell us who you are now, then? Or are you still working it out? :)

[friezaess.livejournal.com]

>.>

Yeah, what is it with the whole teenage girls thing? Though I suppose the sphere also incooporates 30+ year old virgin males... They say that for many people, their interest in anime starts to wane after 5-7 years (yes, some freak actually conducted a study). I guess you get jaded after that point.

And as for what I am now... I am... confused XD

*gnaws*

[knightessyamika.livejournal.com]

lol Well I guess I fail the study. 10 years and going strong! What's even funnier is that my first was Pokemon and I'm still loving it and collecting the DVDs and figures. Not the new stuff though, hate the new ones. >.< BTW I was watching the ep where Team Rocket had a fake wedding to catch the Nidoran in love, and it reminded me of you and your Rocket-shipping days. lol

[sefieslj.livejournal.com]

Fri no luffs us anymore? ;_;

[friezaess.livejournal.com]

Wahh! Of course I luffs youuuu! *shnookies* I'd much rather enter you than a smelly anime convention :D

[swiftylily.livejournal.com]

its sad to hear that you're departing from anime, but its up to you. as long as u still luff us :3

i cant remember how long i've been into anime - depends on what degree of obsession counts XP

although i am more into videogames at the moment (because of my degree mainly).

but NARUTO GA DAISUKI DESUUUUUU XO