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[friezaess]

My mind is screaming at me to get off my ass and do something.

"DRAW! VECTOR! CREATE! You've almost finished the writing for that indie picture book you keep thinking about, get to work on some more illustrations! That guy! Yeah, the one over in Canada now. He wants you to draw some comic book or some shit... do that! Even if it fails miserably, at least you're trying to get your work out there! Pleeeeease... "

My heart wants to come out and play.

"Wow, that last pic you did was awesome! I felt so free and giddy! I know you're not one to express yourself through art, but the power to be able to create images from your head is an expression in itself! Go on... I know underneath all that shyness and "I'm not worthy" crap you have an inflated ego. Give yourself a reason for posessing it."

All this as I sit rotting away before a monitor. Classic example of a willing soul bound to weak flesh I suppose.

Dear God I fail -.-;

As I mentioned to sonictail a while ago, I'm completley cutting anime (and all associated conventions) out of my life. That's just not who I am anymore. Which is a shame really, because just last year I found limitless enjoyment being an obnoxious fangirl, and doing little jobs on the side for animenewsnetwork.com.au was very cool. I'd outgrown anime before I knew it, literally. Everything after around my 21st birthday was done purely out of habit. Conventions, purchases, obsessions... When for the first time in your life you've found your niece, it's hard to accept if and when you eventually grow out of it. Who would have thought Japanese cartoons could play a major role in one's life? ... Dear Christ, I'm a geek.

Meeeeeeeeeh... back to vectoring, I guess...

Comments

[knightessyamika.livejournal.com]

That's it! Go vector your arse off Bitch! lol I'm glad to hear you have some really good projects going so I won't let you waste the opportunity. Get off your arse so you can either work or let me kick it! ;p

As for anime, meh, it's not the be all and end all of life. Everyone has their different paths, and you fall in and out of love with different things, habits and people along the way. They all form who you are now, even if your interest has died.

However, I do miss the soapbox part of you. You see, there's this ex-uni classmate of mine who is always picking fights with me and saying that anime and Japan has no place anywhere near him, this of course including me. It doesn't help that all his friends are MINE too, though they often stick up for me. Anyway, the guy's arse needs a kicking and the soapbox you would have soooo done it! BTW He's an ex-Evangelion fan but vehemently denies that he was ever otaku - eheh, yeah right.

*End rant* ^_^;; *hugs*

[rukubites.livejournal.com]

*laugh* niche. *hugs*

Anime is just Japanese cartoons. Perhaps you'll come back to them sometime, perhaps not. The fandom arena seems to be for teenage fangirls anyway. Understandable if you're over that. Sefie and Mon and others were expressing similar sentiments.

May I ask, if the anime fangirl is not who you are, tell us who you are now, then? Or are you still working it out? :)

[sefieslj.livejournal.com]

Fri no luffs us anymore? ;_;

[swiftylily.livejournal.com]

its sad to hear that you're departing from anime, but its up to you. as long as u still luff us :3

i cant remember how long i've been into anime - depends on what degree of obsession counts XP

although i am more into videogames at the moment (because of my degree mainly).

but NARUTO GA DAISUKI DESUUUUUU XO