friezaess | Degragation

Oh Stony Brook, you happy little university on the other side of the planet. I already had my heart set on you- to have a news literacy subject on your homepage with a picture of Jon Stewart and the course code "EGL" is really just overkill at this point. Still... my pants are tight ._.

Yes, I am awake at 4:37am furiously fapping to an educational institute whose website proudly states that it's a great value "universty". Oh man, why did I have to fuck up my sleep pattern at this point of the week. I can't re-adjust before Monday! I'll be snoring away at my 10am film class! (Well, I'll likely be getting my second wind by then and just drift off on the drive home.)

Thank you to everyone who helped me maintain my sanity in my previous post. I'm just trying to find my happy place at the moment ._. I tried to vent a little by - holy fuck - picking up a pencil and drawing, but as soon as the pencil hit the paper I was hit with the usual cynicism. "That's so unoriginal. Where's your creativity? You should be able to do better than this. This is an exercise in futility- drop the pencil before your ego dies entirely." I'd like to get to work on my short story for ye olde Creative Writing, but it's not due for weeks and I'd feel douchey throwing all my efforts into that when I've got a Communication essay due soon. I like Communication- unlike Journalism and Art, I don't shoot myself in the foot with unrealistic expectations.

I'm just sitting here having used up 41% of my monthly bandwith in 8 days escaping into fantasy land. Nothing matters outside this screen. I have my beautiful X-Japan, my auction sites, my delicious fake news, my 4chan (though not /b/ at this stage ;_;)... I resort to escapism way too often. I shouldn't be here.

This post started out happily. [insert joke re: child pornography here]