Blah.

[friezaess]

*pokes and sighs* Not long 'til Manifest now. Still sorting stuff out. Blah.

*poke, poke* Decided I should probably go grocery shopping tonight instead of living off muesli bars and air. Though I did scam dinner at Kit's the other night. We hauled her futon and some other stuff over here to accommodate for those crashing for the con.

*poke, gnaw* Thanks to peeps who replied to my last emo rant. I do appreciate it. The initial shock has somewhat worn off, so now I'm left feeling... I dunno. Stale. Back at square one. All that fun stuff. Fuck you, Square One.

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[knightessyamika.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry, you know, I really am. I just wish I could have said goodbye to you in person but by the time initial shock at what you'd done turned to anger and then to hurt, you were already gone.

What hurt the most was not what you did, it was that you preferred spending time with my ex and a life you'd completely swore against (together with me, mind you) than spending time with me. When I woke up to that fact and the fact that you never really meant what you'd said way back when you left BAS, it really hurt. It still does. The fact that we've been almost completely inseparable best buds since late '02, makes it hurt even more. The only way I can forget about this pain and move on is to part ways with you.

We're two completely different people (actually I think you're two completely different people all by yourself but we won't go into that) and nothing will ever change that. We simply have to accept it.

As for the rest of you peeps that I know lurk this journal and enjoy Zan's (the nickname is copyrighted btw) company, don't make me out to be the bad guy just because I only like the Anime part of the BAS (Boos, Anime and Sex) lifestyle. I've already had enough of Zan's friends dishing shit out on me for being a complete "nonsocialite" - I don't need to also hear it from the many friends of hers I've never met!