Think happy thoughts, think happy thoughts...

[friezaess]

This is the first time I've been depressed since I arrived.

I know I should just forget those words, but I can't. Not when they came from that person. I don't know... I mean, I supported her when she left on a jetplane, and it would be nice if I could get the same kind of support. She keeps treating me like I don't know a thing about what I'm doing, but I've done so well thus far. I've been having the time of my life in Melbourne, I'm getting help from my friends, and not once in the entire time down here have I felt scared, unloved or desperate. Nervous, yes. Worried, yes. But even if I don't know what I'm getting myself into, I have friends I love dearly and know I can rely on.

I guess the person who I thought would be so supportive has gone the other way. Not that it helps the situation that I just up and left her. I know it hurts having your best friend leave like that. But this is what I wanted to do, and I know that it was the right descision. If I wanted to be tied down in one place and not go travelling and living my life, I'd get married. (Eh, no offence to those of you who ARE married; that's just what I've been told ^^;)

I guess I should just forget that whole conversation. It won't do me any good to keep thinking about it. Had a bit of a bitch to Tom-kun which made me feel a little better. Again, I could have dealt with it from pretty much anyone else except her. I've got to put it out of my head. I'll hopefully be out with Jaq tomorrow and if I'm lucky I might get to catch up with Tom-kun. Heh. I still think it's utterly amusing that one of the people I miss most lives in the same city ^^;

...

Ugh. The feeling still isn't going away. I'm just going to try to get some sleep and pray that I wake up feeling a lot better than I am now.

Comments

[eviltom.livejournal.com]

Baby, don't depress yourself, it's not worth it. She's not thinking of you, only herself.. which is sad because you supported her. That's not fair. She's only being self centred, so you should think of youself too. You've made your own informed decisions and you're doing so well, don't let a thing like this pull you down.
Cheer up, for me ne? *hugs*

[sora-ishida.livejournal.com]

It really hurts when a best friend does things like that to you (I know, I've experienced it too)...I hope it doesn't get you down too much. We all support ya!
*waves around bishie plushies*

-.-; It wouldn't matter what I said anyway.

[(Anonymous)]

Firstly, back off eviltom because you don't know diddly squat about me. Secondly, and with a shrug, what'd I say? You implied there was one thing in particular.

Also, as your best friend and as you already know me, I'm bloody protective of you. So how am I supposed to react when the one person I want to protect and care for runs so far out of my reach so that it's physically impossible to protect or care for her anymore?

Don't be depressed over stupid things I say - I'm not human, I don't feel. Remember?

Thirdly, I'm kinda ticked because everyone (no, not just you) has up and left me to bid hello to the arrival of uni days and now so must I.