friezaess | Oh fuck.

There have been... complications with my efforts to study in New York.

Essentially the head of the Journalism department has to approve my study plan, and because of how long it took for me to get all the information (had to phone the US several times D:), there is now a good chance that they will not be able to approve it in time. I just handed in the form a few hours ago. It needs to be signed and returned to the student exchange office by Friday... and one of the people in the Journalism office said I might be unlucky.

When I found out that was the case, I could hear the blood pulsing in my ears and my hands wouldn't stop shaking. This is something I've been working towards since I handed in my QTAC application in '07 and the main reason I want a degree is for travel related reasons. If I can't do it... I'll ~~be sobbing like a little bitch for days~~ likely shut down and seal myself off from the world for God knows how many weeks. Fuck. I know I sound like a spoiled douche bag making a big deal of this, but... I've been pinning all my hopes on studying over there for several years. It's been my dream and at times the only thing that keeps my hopes up.

I just... I don't know...