"I.V. to my vein, to feel less it's pain..."

Some days it's so hard to fight being miserable ._.

I've been trying SO DAMN HARD for ages to be... well... content I guess. Not happy. Maybe sometime in the future I can be happy, but it's taken me years just to get to the point of being able to classify myself as "not entirely sad", so yeah... baby steps >_>

I don't wanna be unhappy. I just want to lose myself...