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[friezaess]

One year.

Today I stood by her grave in silent reflection and felt... nothing. It was an engraved rock in the middle of a field. To have the privellage of knowing someone so indescribable and then seeing their existance summed up with a rock... it's anti-climactic.

I still dream about her almost every night. I still get pissed off beyond all reasoning when I desperatley need to consult her expertise, whispering one-sided conversations into the night and recieving no reply. We were both so into discussing the paranormal... I guess I was hoping to see Casper the Friendly Ghost or something.

One year since the world lost one of it's most compassionate people. One year since I officially switched off.

If you were here, everything would be different.

I love you, Mum.

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[kitsunesakurano.livejournal.com]

if you ever need someone to talk to no matter the hor, I'll always be here.
I might not know what it is like to loose a mother I knew. but I at least understand the pain of wanting to talk to the one person who will never reply.

[(Anonymous)]

*is teary fo'real*

[tortoises.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

[sefieslj.livejournal.com]

*huuuuuuuuuuugs*

[rose-papillon.livejournal.com]

I can't imagine how you must be feeling right now.

*hugs*

[swiftylily.livejournal.com]

*huggles*