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[friezaess]

Awful day was awful.

Unfulfilling holiday is unfulfilling.

I am drinking away the emo-ness and not even bothering to use a glass.

God how I miss Christmas cooking... God how I miss having someone try and force me into enjoying a holiday I couldn't care less about.

*takes another swig of cheap wine*

This self-imposed exile, as I like to call it... cutting myself off from everything resembling a social life. It's so liberating, yet so goddamn heartbreaking. I love being all alone, yet I can't stand the lonliness. I want to do something for someone and have fun with them, I want to blow my entire paycheque having fun with someone I actually click with.

Guh. More wine.

Comments

[tortoises.livejournal.com]

Awww, Fri. *huuuuuuuuuug*

[illusionbreaker.livejournal.com]

... So you're looking for a significant other?

Well, on a more serious note, pass the wine. I dread these next two weeks for my own reasons, and sometimes solitude is worth the trouble.

[friezaess.livejournal.com]

Pfft, nah, I'm not that promiscuous (anymore). I just miss being around people I can actually connect with.

*passes booze* What's your excuse?

[illusionbreaker.livejournal.com]

I dislike the time of year, for a few reasons. It's a long running thing with me, and although the reasoning is probably nonsensical, at least now. I still like keeping the time of year clear so I can lock myself up and just spend time to myself.

I think about twenty years of horrible, horrible family get-togethers where I'd get attention for all the wrong reasons, for only a handful of days in a year before they go back to being at war with each other. (As in death threats, violence and the whole nine yards.)

It was probably the biggest bit of fakery that I could easily say most people would have ever been witness to, although if you dropped by, you'd think that we were the perfect family of all time and that I was just going insane for pointing out otherwise.

And I got repeat performances, year in, year out. I think last year was the first year it didn't happen, although I'm not putting any money on it being permament... yet.

I think I just keep an isolation ward open at this time just so I don't have to get exposed to it, just in case.

Who said anything about being promiscuous? Getting a significant other isn't just about the physical contact you know. Sometimes it's just about the company.

[laurelleaf.livejournal.com]

Ahh, yet another victim of the hideousness that is Christmas. Eugh.
Just remember, you are not alone in the way you feel, and soon, I hope, this will all be over. No more decorations or noise or children. They'll all go back to school and we'll once again be safe.

Alcohol is awesome for stuff.