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How Fri-chan got her groove back
May. 30th, 2005 03:37 pmAt Jobsearch again. I told them I just wanted to start off with a job where I'd be chucked in front of a computer and didn't have to do anything too complicated. They suggested... a typist? Sounds kinda boring and lowly. (I have too much of an ego to do someone else's paper work, which is why I never apply for personal assistant or secretarial positions.) But... meh. I suppose it's something I could look into. I've kind of put retail jobs on the shelf for now, seeing I'm much more suited to sitting my ass down at a computer than putting on a happy face and breathing down customers' necks asking them if they want to buy something. I suppose telemarketing and retail have a lot in common >_>
My thoughts have turned to AVCon. Well, mostly AVCon. The rest of my thoughts are revolving around a sudden onslaught of stomach cramps. Fucking OW >_< Stupid female body. But back to AVCon. I'm looking into accommodation and ticket prices at the moment. Provided![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
eviltom agrees (extra nights at the hostel and all), I'd really love to go down a couple of days early and explore the place. You can't just go to a brand new city and not take the time to explore it a bit! (Canberra doesn't count.) Seriously though. I love to travel and see the sights, and even though Adelaide may be a bit of a hole, I wanna check it out. Do some dorky tourist things. Or just do what I did on my first couple of journies to Melbourne and explore the city (I'd rather be browsing shops and looking at spiffy buildings than checking out trees or something on those lame-ass bush tours).
One more thing. I've sorta kinda gotten back into drawing. The reason for this? I remember why I started drawing in the first place- boredom. Pure and simple. I was bored in class so I drew. I was bored at lunchtime because I had no friends to sit with, so I drew. (That and people didn't bully you as much if you looked busy >_>) I was bored throughout high school, so I drew. Except when I got out of high school and got into animation, I started putting more pressure on myself. By 2004 I was pushing myself harder and harder to be the best artist I'd ever seen, comparing myself to everyone around me in places like OzTAKU, DeviantART and Graphic Design. Everything I drew had to be a flawless masterpiece, and if it wasn't I'd beat myself up about it.
Another thing that I think influenced my downfall was my Wacom tablet. I became slack, and my drawings became steadily worse as I continued to think "Who cares what it looks like on paper, I'll scan it in and fix it up with my tablet." Latley I've been craving to play with non-digital media, like pastels or something. Nothing serious. I don't think I ever want to feel that sort of pressure again, especially when it comes to something I hold so dear. So I've picked myself up and have slowly started doodling again when I'm bored at JobSearch. My drawings, though still flawed, are the best they've been in months.
Unfortunatly, and this is a major blow to my ego, I've pretty much given up on my OzTAKU submission. This is especially disappointing considering how teriffic Issue 3 was shaping up to be. I knew that the previous issues were utter tripe so I went back and tried to fix them, but with my sudden lack of ability and motivation I was unable to. I couldn't even finish Issue 3. Maybe someday I'll go back to it, but not now, and not on the shitty laptop I'm using.
My thoughts have turned to AVCon. Well, mostly AVCon. The rest of my thoughts are revolving around a sudden onslaught of stomach cramps. Fucking OW >_< Stupid female body. But back to AVCon. I'm looking into accommodation and ticket prices at the moment. Provided
eviltom agrees (extra nights at the hostel and all), I'd really love to go down a couple of days early and explore the place. You can't just go to a brand new city and not take the time to explore it a bit! (Canberra doesn't count.) Seriously though. I love to travel and see the sights, and even though Adelaide may be a bit of a hole, I wanna check it out. Do some dorky tourist things. Or just do what I did on my first couple of journies to Melbourne and explore the city (I'd rather be browsing shops and looking at spiffy buildings than checking out trees or something on those lame-ass bush tours).One more thing. I've sorta kinda gotten back into drawing. The reason for this? I remember why I started drawing in the first place- boredom. Pure and simple. I was bored in class so I drew. I was bored at lunchtime because I had no friends to sit with, so I drew. (That and people didn't bully you as much if you looked busy >_>) I was bored throughout high school, so I drew. Except when I got out of high school and got into animation, I started putting more pressure on myself. By 2004 I was pushing myself harder and harder to be the best artist I'd ever seen, comparing myself to everyone around me in places like OzTAKU, DeviantART and Graphic Design. Everything I drew had to be a flawless masterpiece, and if it wasn't I'd beat myself up about it.
Another thing that I think influenced my downfall was my Wacom tablet. I became slack, and my drawings became steadily worse as I continued to think "Who cares what it looks like on paper, I'll scan it in and fix it up with my tablet." Latley I've been craving to play with non-digital media, like pastels or something. Nothing serious. I don't think I ever want to feel that sort of pressure again, especially when it comes to something I hold so dear. So I've picked myself up and have slowly started doodling again when I'm bored at JobSearch. My drawings, though still flawed, are the best they've been in months.
Unfortunatly, and this is a major blow to my ego, I've pretty much given up on my OzTAKU submission. This is especially disappointing considering how teriffic Issue 3 was shaping up to be. I knew that the previous issues were utter tripe so I went back and tried to fix them, but with my sudden lack of ability and motivation I was unable to. I couldn't even finish Issue 3. Maybe someday I'll go back to it, but not now, and not on the shitty laptop I'm using.
