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Not only does my relationship with my best friend die, so does my computer's relationship with me! The mouse was fucked when I booted up today. For a while it took quite a bit of effort to make it do anything aside from move vertically, then it just packed it in. I suspect a virus considering even when I chanegd mouses it wouldn't work, and when I tried to run the virus scanner the thing couldn't run. So I hauled ye olde 7 year old computer in from the kitchen and hooked it up to my monitor. This thing is so freaking slow; took me more than two hours to download an 8 MB file >_< A calculator has a better connection than I do right now.
So yeah, spending time at Adam's was good. Helped me take my mind off things, especially when he gave me a big-ass sketchpad and a pretty "Friends Forever" photo frame for my birthday. I took a picture of us together to put in it ^_^ Adam's the kind of person you can just hang around the house and watch movies with. Also the kind of person who's good to take drinking. And hell, he's been one of my closest mates for the last eight years, so we're on pretty good terms.
I left his place this arvo and came home to... *shudder*... my relatives. Remember how I've said before how my favourite songs have seen me through even the worst of times? Today they were cranked up on my computer as we sat outside and discussed... stuff. And God help me, ANOTHER birthday cake. (Seeing as my cousin and I usually celebrate our birthdays together... her's is on the 10th I think.) I was good to be rid of those superficial bastards by late afternoon.
On short notice, I managed to catch up with Teresa. We went to this rather overpriced dessert bar at Roselea. $11.90 for a slice of cheesecake! But it was a white chocolate cheesecake with a huge (like, 1 foot long) sliver of chocolate stabbing it. I feel really quite ill... no more sweet stuff for a while, onegai shimaaaaaaasu >_<
I'm still kinda in shock from the other day though. I couldn't sleep for ages last night thinking about![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
knightessyamika, and I'm surprised I managed to keep myself from collapsing in a heap and crying into the dirt on my way over to Adam's. This is all my own doing, but that fact doesn't stop the hurting. There'd be no escaping these deep feelings of sadness no matter who I chose, but goddamit, I've lost something so special. *sigh* I guess I should move on. That's all I can do.
I love Mel.
I'm *IN LOVE* with Tom.
And even though it hurts so deeply, I know I'll have someone who I care about so much waiting for me when I get back to Melbourne next week. I've said before that as long as I have him, I'm staying put. I also know that I'm not the only one in pain here. I wish this was one of those times where I could give Mel-chan a hug and tell her everything's okay, but...
So yeah, spending time at Adam's was good. Helped me take my mind off things, especially when he gave me a big-ass sketchpad and a pretty "Friends Forever" photo frame for my birthday. I took a picture of us together to put in it ^_^ Adam's the kind of person you can just hang around the house and watch movies with. Also the kind of person who's good to take drinking. And hell, he's been one of my closest mates for the last eight years, so we're on pretty good terms.
I left his place this arvo and came home to... *shudder*... my relatives. Remember how I've said before how my favourite songs have seen me through even the worst of times? Today they were cranked up on my computer as we sat outside and discussed... stuff. And God help me, ANOTHER birthday cake. (Seeing as my cousin and I usually celebrate our birthdays together... her's is on the 10th I think.) I was good to be rid of those superficial bastards by late afternoon.
On short notice, I managed to catch up with Teresa. We went to this rather overpriced dessert bar at Roselea. $11.90 for a slice of cheesecake! But it was a white chocolate cheesecake with a huge (like, 1 foot long) sliver of chocolate stabbing it. I feel really quite ill... no more sweet stuff for a while, onegai shimaaaaaaasu >_<
I'm still kinda in shock from the other day though. I couldn't sleep for ages last night thinking about
knightessyamika, and I'm surprised I managed to keep myself from collapsing in a heap and crying into the dirt on my way over to Adam's. This is all my own doing, but that fact doesn't stop the hurting. There'd be no escaping these deep feelings of sadness no matter who I chose, but goddamit, I've lost something so special. *sigh* I guess I should move on. That's all I can do.I love Mel.
I'm *IN LOVE* with Tom.
And even though it hurts so deeply, I know I'll have someone who I care about so much waiting for me when I get back to Melbourne next week. I've said before that as long as I have him, I'm staying put. I also know that I'm not the only one in pain here. I wish this was one of those times where I could give Mel-chan a hug and tell her everything's okay, but...
