I hate this SO much.

Ugh. I feel sick. But I'm trying desperatly to do what I can to make things right.

Like when I got in an argument from Mel and soon after recieved an e-mail somberly asking that we end our friendship. Okay, so we've had our differences, but she's still a hugley important part of my life and I love her very much. She's one of the only people in my entire life I've let close to me, and there's no way I'm giving that up. As Mel-chan knows, I'm fucking stubborn.

I speeled to Tom-kun about it a bit. Logic mixed with paranoia and I started to think that he wouldn't love me if I got depressed, which I do from time to time. I can't control it, and I don't want to go back on my anti-depressants because sometimes they make me sick. For the most part of my time down here I really have been happy, but sometimes I feel myself having to surpress my depression, and other times it tends to try and take over like the other night. And I'd understand why anyone wouldn't want to be with me because of it.

Stupid conflicts. Stupid issues. *shoots them, hugs Mel-chan and kisses Tom-kun*

Emu

Dude...

It was a fucking emu!!

Today kitsunesakurano went to Knox in search of a heart-shaped riding crop I want for tomorrow's ALice in Wonderland picnic. With no luck, we had some lunch, I picked up a couple of tacky heart-related jewelry bits, and we hopped the bus home. Now, for a while Kit-chan's been telling me of an emu that lives near her house. I never really believed her, but she took me off the bus and insisted that I see it. I was waiting for a life-sized painting of the bird or something, but in some shrubbery a bit of a walk from her house was a real live EMU!!! Named MYRTLE! Some girl was feeding it when we got there. It was really quite cute.

But seriously...

It was a fucking emu!

When we got back we watched the Incredibles, and welcomed Dani-chan over. She's sleeping over tonight! Raping time! ... Okay, maybe just some mild poking with a stick. Or a tentacle. *shrugs*

Should prolly get back to working on ye olde Queen of Hearts costume! Can't wait 'til tomorrow!!