Hopeless

[friezaess]

I'm not in a good place at the moment.

I think I'll just... go to bed for a while. So goddamn tired. So sick to my stomach over journalism. I feel like a child peering out from beneath their blankets at something horrible. Sometimes I just wish my car would swerve into a pole and I wouldn't have to deal with any of this. Sometimes I just don't know how I'm supposed to deal with the future.

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[xelyna.livejournal.com]

::hugs:: Sometimes the best thing to do is sleep off the depression. I always feel better after a little nap.

[swiftylily.livejournal.com]

oh baby...i know it's hard. but one way i got through some dark patches was remembering that there are people who are in a worse position than me.

example: the most beautiful soul i have ever met has worked at my work part time for almost 8 years. she is a gentle soul from eastern europe who has so many health problems that she is constantly on heavy pain medication all the time. she cannot have an hour lunch break because she will either fall asleep from the effect of the medications or experience extreme pain from lack of distraction. she has hip problems and her boyfriend is so difficult that she constantly ends up at her cat-lady neighbours house for company. all her family is across the other side of the world, so she only has her friends here.

but she never complains. she is so lovely to everyone and goes out of her way to help you without you even asking.

i feel ashamed ever complaining around her, because i know how much she has to deal with every day yet she still smiles and never mentions anything.

you also have so many people who love you. i wish i could come and live with you for a while and cheer you up because i believe you are awesome and good things come to those who wait.

:3 call me anytime baby.