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Awful day was awful.
Unfulfilling holiday is unfulfilling.
I am drinking away the emo-ness and not even bothering to use a glass.
God how I miss Christmas cooking... God how I miss having someone try and force me into enjoying a holiday I couldn't care less about.
*takes another swig of cheap wine*
This self-imposed exile, as I like to call it... cutting myself off from everything resembling a social life. It's so liberating, yet so goddamn heartbreaking. I love being all alone, yet I can't stand the lonliness. I want to do something for someone and have fun with them, I want to blow my entire paycheque having fun with someone I actually click with.
Guh. More wine.
Unfulfilling holiday is unfulfilling.
I am drinking away the emo-ness and not even bothering to use a glass.
God how I miss Christmas cooking... God how I miss having someone try and force me into enjoying a holiday I couldn't care less about.
*takes another swig of cheap wine*
This self-imposed exile, as I like to call it... cutting myself off from everything resembling a social life. It's so liberating, yet so goddamn heartbreaking. I love being all alone, yet I can't stand the lonliness. I want to do something for someone and have fun with them, I want to blow my entire paycheque having fun with someone I actually click with.
Guh. More wine.
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Well, on a more serious note, pass the wine. I dread these next two weeks for my own reasons, and sometimes solitude is worth the trouble.
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Just remember, you are not alone in the way you feel, and soon, I hope, this will all be over. No more decorations or noise or children. They'll all go back to school and we'll once again be safe.
Alcohol is awesome for stuff.