i say tell the doctor to shove it. the only person who truly knows how you feel or what you want is you. i don't care how many years the person has been studying to understand how humans tick, they can never understand what makes each individual tick. YOU are the only one who knows that. YOU are the only one who can make decisions for yourself. BE SELFISH! whatever decision you make, those who love you and those whom you love should support it because it's your decision, your life and no one can tell you otherwise.