ext_159042 ([identity profile] rininjapan.livejournal.com) wrote in [personal profile] friezaess 2008-04-04 02:45 am (UTC)

I thought you were doing a creative course? Can't you incorporate your dreams into it?

In any case, I've found work is work, school is school. Get it over and done with (even if you do it in a dreamy daze) then retreat back into your fantasy world.

Hun, no matter what I do, even after two days I still have the image of Yura-sama peering out with pretty eyes at me from under his black beret as we shake hands. It doesn't help when I start watching Psycho vids because then I remember him on stage shaking his thing in the sparkling white suit, with his platinum blond hair tied in a cute side ponytail. Or even just being so near him and watching him as he sat at the Q&A. I seriously can't let it go. I was even in tears yesterday thinking about him, and thinking, "I should be a far better, nicer, prettier, less-nervous person when I meet him next," and then I get so ashamed of the person I actually was when I did meet him. Not only that, I'm moping about the crappy quality of the DVD I gave him when I could have done so much better if I had bought more Dacco and Psycho DVDs sooner. Wonder if he thought the same.

If that's not being glued to a dream, I don't know what is. I feel pretty pathetic right now. :(

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